Reading my old journal entries feels like going through a vintage store – you never know what you are going to find. Thankfully all my past entries I’ve discovered, always ends in a positive light. I guess putting on spiritual glasses helped a lot.
There was this quote I stumbled on, it was from an Adventist Quote on Instagram which I copied and written down in my journal because I felt that was exactly the reassurance I needed that time. I never thought that I’d need it again. The quote was from Pastor Walter L. Pearson. It says, “God sometimes waits until everybody says there’s no hope, it can’t be done, there’s nothing that can be accomplished, and when everybody has signed off on the impossibility, then God steps in because God specializes in things that are impossible.”
Me finding this quote again is so timely. There is no doubt God made me go through my old journal to remind me how Mighty He Is. He who can always flip the script and change the narrative of my life.
You see during these past weeks I had been struggling and is still struggling with this job which God has given me the second time around. I lost my job during the pandemic and so I prayed for a new job. And surprise surprise He gave me one in the same field of work. Please don’t get me wrong – I am grateful. I am blessed that I have a job but I am still praying earnestly for a better one ( the discontentment – eyes rolling up on the ceiling ).
We humans are always like this complaining and whining, forgetting the small and big blessings we encounter everyday. Taking for granted that someone else is praying for what we have.
God has a strange way of doing things ~ if the situation is not changing He is making us see the situation in a different way. That is just how God is. For His thoughts are not our thoughts and His ways are not our ways. (Isaiah 55:8)
Again He made me put on my spiritual glasses to see my work situation in a different perspective. All the challenges which I encountered for the past weeks made me showcase Jesus. Instead of losing it I had self-control, patience and peace that passeth understanding. As much as I would like to talk back and get even with my manager who I thought was attacking me in our board meeting, I kept my peace.
So perhaps the Lord is harnessing my patience and self-control reason why I am still doing this job. Perhaps there is someone in my workplace who needs to know more about Jesus and His love through me. Perhaps God has something else to show me which I have yet to see. Whatever that “perhaps” I pray that I’ll complete this mission successfully for I’d like to hear Him say “Well done, my good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your Lord.” (Matthew 25:21)
I decided to endure because endurance produces character, and character produces hope. And hope does not disappoint because God’s love has been poured out into our hearts by the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. (Romans5:4-6) . God is love . Love always finds a way (L’amour trouve toujours un chemin) even when there seems to be no way.
At the back of the building where I work is a huge church with two crosses very visible to the pedestrians. I can’t help but always look up just to see these crosses on top of this church building. And near the entrance of the building where I work is a statue of a bull. So every morning I have to see these crosses and this bull before I start my day in the office. Crosses and a bull. I have realized they are reminders. Seeing those crosses everyday should be enough to remind me that Christ died for me because He loves me and the rest of humanity. And whatever is going through in my life could not be compared as to what He has been through. I had been too self-centered and too self-absorbed with the challenges in my life that I am forgetting that Jesus already won the battle. And every time I look into that bull’s horns it should be a reminder to grab life by the horns and to not let challenges overcome me but I have to overcome the challenges. I have to take charge and rise to the power of Jesus which is within me, for I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)
Being a true follower of Christ does not mean everything will be easy. It’s the other way around. It means taking our own cross. There is a cost in following Jesus but greater is the reward.
“Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven…” Matthew 5:12